Diana's former lover thought of dying after the affair

James Hewitt considered suicide following his five-year affair with Britain's late Princess Diana.
The retired household cavalry officer - who famously began seeing Diana while she was still with her ex-husband Prince Charles - claims he was so devastated by the end of the relationship in 1992 that he was willing to take his own life and was only stopped by his mother.
He told US TV show 'Inside Edition', "I got in my car and loaded a few things up to get on the ferry to go to France to shoot myself. Then my mother insisted on coming with me. If she hadn't, I would probably have shot myself. So I owe her my life really.”
"I felt I had let people down probably myself, my family, my friends, the nation, the army, my regiment. Other than that, no one at all."
Diana - who admitted to the affair during her in her infamous 1995 'Panorama' interview - died in a Paris car crash in August 1997 and James says he still misses her.
The 52-year-old military man - who helped write a book about the princess following her death – said, "I think we all miss her. But I've tried to move on with my life."